I love this crazy, tragic, sometimes almost magic, awful, beautiful life…

For those of you that don’t know, that title is a song lyric from a country song (I love country music).  I think it sums up life pretty well-  the ups and downs are constant and never-ending.

The past week and a half has included some of those tragic, awful moments, as one of my friends and coworkers, Nickie, passed away last Thursday.  I have known Nickie since she moved up to Georgia and started teaching at the same school as me a few years ago.  We have been in the same group of friends, though that group had been slowly changing and is no longer as tight as it used to be.  Regardless, Nickie was an incredible woman, battling with health issues and was, without a doubt, one of the strongest women I knew.  I won’t go into the details, but basically this death was a fairly sudden one, and everyone was shocked to hear of her passing.  Nickie was so young and left behind a wonderful husband, who is dealing with a lot right now, as his father passed away suddenly just days after Nickie, and there are some other family issues going on right now.  I am praying for him and everyone who was close to him and Nickie, and I ask that you say a little prayer for them too.  My thoughts are kind of jumbled right now, as the last week and a half has been a little crazy, so I apologize if I am not making sense or jumping around.  Telling the kids at school was incredibly heart-breaking, and everyone has definitely been affected.  This year has been very trying for a number of reasons, and this is just one more that makes me want May 24 to come that much quicker.  Like I said, I don’t want to go into much detail or go on and on but I love and miss Nickie and am glad that she was a part of my life, even if for a short amount of time.

Another friend of mine just lost his mother this weekend as well, so I am praying for their family too- it’s crazy, it seems when it rains, it pours, whether good or bad.  I know that God doesn’t make mistakes and he has plans for us all, but sometimes I just wish we knew those plans!  Death is always such a vivid reminder that our days are limited and to live them to their full extent (I feel guilty even saying this as I lay on my couch on a beautiful Saturday afternoon, doing not a darn thing…).  I definitely feel like I need to look around a bit more, say I love you a bit more, and just truly enjoy every moment of my life.  I know, easier said than done.

With all those ‘downs’ looming around, I will share a major ‘up’ moment-  my sissy came to visit me last weekend 🙂 🙂  I LOVE spending time with her, she is my best friend.  She technically got into Georgia Thursday night (well…sort of, LOL), but spent the night (again, sort of) in Columbus so that she could spend the day with her hubby at Ft Benning Friday since he had an 8 hour pass between his Ranger School training sessions.  I am glad that they got to spend some time together and I am glad that after that, I was able to pick her up and bring her to ATL to spend some time with MEEEE!  We had a relaxing Friday night, then a busy, slightly intoxicated Saturday for St. Patrick’s Day.  We had lots of fun {so much that our Sunday was pretty much spent on the couch, hehe} and got to meet up with some different friends throughout the day.

My little “happiness project” has been going strong and has really done some good things for me.  I have recently started to work out again, after MONTHS (no joke) of “getting the motivation.”  Seriously, since I stopped working at the YMCA in August, I had maybe worked out a total of 10 times until recently.  Between working, working, and working…and pretending to have a social life every now and then, and my sister’s wedding, and holidays and so on, I felt like I had no time or energy to work out.  About two weeks ago, I finally “got the motivation” to put on my running shoes (that’s all it really takes, once I am dressed to work out, I pretty much know I will do it), and started at it again.  I am making slow progress but I am doing it!  Being active has been on my “happiness project” list since I started it, but that slot had sat empty, void of checkmarks/Xs/dots for quite some time.  Once I finally got the motivation and was able to check it off that first time, it was much easier to keep doing it- and I have, fairly consistently since then.  The fact that it stays lighter later has helped for sure, and knowing that summer is coming up (shorts, swimsuits, etc) is definitely a motivating factor.  But the truth is, just like everyone says, I do feel more energized overall, and I have been getting up easier and eating healthier.  I can tell a change in my days and in my attitude as well.  Moral of the story…be active!  Even if it is just a 10 minute walk through your neighborhood!

The rest of my little project has been fairly consistent….grading, lessons, keeping up with cleaning, have all become pretty much routine by now and much less of a “chore.”  I hope that my spring break won’t mess up all this progress!  Speaking of which- spring break is right around the corner–only one more week of school!  I am heading to New Mexico, of course, to see my honey 🙂  We need to start planning our summer because A. we have approximately 92,756,320,975 things to do, and B. IT IS SOOOO CLOSE!  I am out of school in two months, which means I have two months to prepare for a HUGE move!  I am getting incredibly excited {despite the fact that I still don’t have a job out there yet}.  I know it will all work out in the end, but jeeez, the anxiety and excitement are enough to make me go insane!  Anyway, I am looking forward to some time with Brandon and making lots of “to-do lists” (I am a to-do list professional, getting it honestly from my pops!).

I know I don’t speak nearly enough about my honey on here, but that’s because I don’t want to bore everyone with how in love I am and how much I miss him and blah, blah, blah.  Truthfully, since our lives are on opposite sides of the country at the moment, I can’t keep you updated on much that we “do,” unless we are visiting each other.  We both pretty much stay busy with work and talk to each other as much as we can.  I can’t wait to be able to post that we see each other every day and are getting sick of each other 😉

Well, it’s only been a few weeks, yet that still felt like a novel!  Hope you feel caught up–I know the next few weeks and months are going to be incredibly busy and exciting so I will try to post as much as possible.  Enjoy your weekend!

Some lovely words…

Busy Bee, but not too busy to post!

Looky looky, it hasn’t been 3 weeks and I am posting!  I have been following my “Happiness Project” list pretty well, and, while I don’t necessarily think it has made me happier, it is definitely helping me stay on top of grading, lesson plans, keeping my apartment tidy, and just getting things done in general.  And I suppose this all contributes to my overall happiness, so hooray for me!  This past week was incredibly busy for me (including this weekend!), but has been fairly productive too.  

In addition to my normal working schedule, Tuesday I had to put up an art display in the County Office, and if you follow my classroom blog, you will know that it’s up and looks great, but not without some grumbling from me.  I love having the kids’ artwork on display in the community, but it is a LOT of work.  I don’t mind the work until it seems like it is for nothing.  When I got there, half of my stuff didn’t fit, including an awesome piece of artwork I really wanted to show off.  I will say that I am truly proud of how talented my students are–I don’t want to compare their work to some of the stuff I have seen on display, but really, my kids’ stuff is pretty great!  

Anyway, Wednesday night we had our Black History Program, which I went to after I worked afterschool, making for a VERY long day (leaving my house at 6am and returning after 8pm!).  I created the backdrop for the performance, so seeing my hours of work with all of the students’ and teachers’ hours of work was pretty wonderful 🙂  

Thursday and Friday were pretty much a breeze after the busy beginning of the week.  Plus, I got to play catch up with a good friend Friday night at dinner–we are going through some similar things in our lives right now so it was nice to chat and relax and just enjoy spending time with her.  Saturday was a FULL day beginning with applications and resumes and such for the schools I am applying to out in west Texas/New Mexico.  I still haven’t heard back from the school I interviewed with, so while I haven’t completely given up hope, I am definitely focusing on applying elsewhere as well.  After getting some of that stuff done, I also caught up with a friend from college through a phone date and I love hearing everyone’s exciting life stories right now, we are all in the midst of such a crazy part of our lives!  Then I helped my dear friend Layla with making her wedding invitations which was fun, I love putting my craftiness to good use (and spending time with some lovely ladies!!!).  

Today has been a very productive Sunday–grocery shopping, laundry, more applications/resumes, cleaning, etc.  I am excited and anxious to send out all of these applications and such and hopefully it will lead to a job!  I am hopefully going to be back in New Mexico for spring break, and I think we are going to try to start planning out some of what will happen as far as actually moving and such.  This is such an exciting and anxiety-inducing time in my life, but it is definitely all going to pay off! 

In the short term I am super excited to see my sister in a few weeks and am glad that this week will be a bit let overwhelming than last week!